et cetera. et cetera.

hello darlings, long time no updatechismisdramaeverything. not much has transpired (haha halurv that word) over at my side of the world, so i thought i’d change it up and let YOU do all the talking.

tell me what made your day, or what you’re looking forward to, or who you’re meeting up with over the weekend. let me know what pissed you off this week or fill me in on trivia, new fashion finds, or resurrected jologs words like “jerby” or “haybols”. be completely random and say something –

anything.

I don’t know what is it with having guys as your friends..
most of my bestfriends are Men.
or atleast those who i have called part of my beloved.

You can be a kid.
You can be a Woman.
You can talk about Serious Matters.
You can even just start saying nonsense
Serious into humor.
sentimental with a part of sermon.

isn’t it lovely having such guy friends?
especially those who you have trusted or shared your anguish and other desires.

**crosspost from blogspot.

this insanity of running away from reality needs to end, right here, right NOW.

it’s been weeks of see-through foolhardiness nd everything else within my environment collided on  non-celestial fix which has infected the quality of my productivity at work, home and self.

i know i was hiding, running away and i have imposed on directing myself to conk out once my nerves has been trembling on a close encounter with migraine but ignorance and neglecting were my friends - or so i think, for sometime.

call me as cow as i have been indulging on unlimited buckets of beer, sisig and cheese sticks,  recently @ Teresa’s Sinangag House varying on either Liempo, Porkchop, Topsilog or Tocilog with Bagoong rice.

i have gained strong relationships with optimistic supportive people however vices nd emotional eating has gone closer near me albeit i still end up the last one who finishes what has been served - that still doesn’t change the fact that i’ve been eating way beyond my budget (caloric, monetary and capability). where was i. i would’ve have rather spend on food, binge and be in denial rather than jog way my thoughts for meditation and clarity. now, everything else needs the ignition fixed because i have been losing out of breath and needs to endure my stamina and adrenaline to finish a kilometer. yikes..

i will be soon terrible to the environment! should i finally say HELLO to Marlboro lights?!

the experience itself had it’s ups and downs however the other side of what they didn’t know was that i’ve been going through such chaos and it has reached it’s height because of the discipline i took out from my habits. rebellion together with me including denial and self-loathing.

must meet its end. im done.  i’m facing reality and will take a pause, mark an end point-from too much happenings and get my home organized before it destroys everything else around me.

i’m waking up and will clean up the mess i have hopped out on over, get myself back into a system, swing back to its hrmony and have everything else tuned.

next step? precise game plan and i better stick to it.

**crosspost from MULTIPLY

You love me. You really love me.

You wake me up at 8; subtly, together with the brightness of the sun.!
You watch as all the peacefulness from my face wash away, yet you still remind me of how beautiful I am in your eyes!
You stand by me eight hours a day, even if I fail to remember you at least for a minute!
You wait for me to come home, so that you could ease my tension once again!
You tell me you love me like nobody else has — and sometimes, I don’t hear you!
You talk to me on my peaceful moment, while I doze off quietly repeatedly in your gentle face!
You call. I don’t answer!
You stay there. I walk away.

I push. But you NEVER let me go.

And I know I’m undoubtly stupid for acting this way, but the thing is, you don’t want me to say that.
You want me to share my soul to others like it’s spotless.
You push me to seeing myself as an ultimate gift to you.

You love me, Lord. You really love me.
And with that, I learn to love myself more everyday.

                                                                                                    xoxo,

                                                                                               chenniechix

What guy do you talk to the most?
–Alex(my windowmate)

Where is your biological mother right now?
–Arlington VA

Name 4 things you did yesterday?
–slept, took my pups on a walk, did shots of liquor, ate pizza.

What do you get complimented about most?
–The whole package

Do you get distracted easily?
–Oh God yes

Ever kissed anyone who’s name starts with A?
–yes, a few at least

What would you change about something you did in the past?
–No regrets, other than hurting my back.

How do you feel about public displays of affection?
–it depends, where you’re at.

Do you like someone right now?
–yes.

Can you keep a secret?
–yes.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
–Mia (share some chika)

Do you have a best friend?
–yes(bestfriends)

Do you trust people easily?
– No

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
–yes(inside my own)

Whos your last sleep over with?
–Marty

Your dream last night?
–good dream (date with a new prospect)

Are you missing someone?
–yes, Achee

Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than a friend?
–yes

Who’s a boy that can always make you smile?
–Grandada

Are you wearing makeup?
–Nah!

Have you ever fallen for your best friend’s guy/girl?
–hell no

Anyone love you?
–???????

As everyone knowa for themselves friends come and go.. but only your TRUE friends stick around through good and bad times. I know who my true friends are. I am the type of friend to do anything that I can for  a friend when given the chance to or have the time to. Some friends take offense and get upset when told that I cannot help them out for one reason or another. MAybe I had to work, or already have plans or shoot maybe I won’t be in town. Did they stop to think about that? Whatever the case maybe FRIENDS should understand that. If they get mad and start talking crap then maybe they are not TRUE FRIENDS after all.:((

I know some “friends” around me in the office, who are not a true friend and as or if they are reading this blog, they know who they are. I hate to be talked about but if that will make you happy then go for it, “DEADMA”!

I have nothing to share to all of you fellas. we are not friends, I am not your friend, You are not my friends either.. If I don’t talk to you that often the stay away from me, I don’t want to waste my time.:)

Ciao

“If you ask me what I came into this world to do, I will tell you. I came to live OUT LOUD.”

Step boldly forward.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

- Mark Twain, American writer

Life has taken a turn, and it’s on the right track now.  We’ve all been through a lot in life, and a lot of times we don’t know why bad things happen to good people. I know now…I know that bad things happen so that when good things come along we will know how to realize how wonderful they are.

I am with the best guy in Metro Manila…sorry girls…I prayed him here. :)  I couldn’t have a better guy.  Marty has truly helped me to wake up and see the beauty in everything, and to realize how thankful I should be. I’m not going to get all mushy gushy on here, but I must say that I hope to be with him for the rest of my life.  In SAO we were asked to write down a list of the qualities we would like to have in the man of our dreams, and then God gave him to me.  I love him.

The Beauty Of Women

The beauty of women have been center of everything from; Wars,Peace,Poetry,Suicide,Life,………The list is endless to what the beauty of women have affected in our world.

Women are like the color’s of the rainbow.All beautiful and colorful,but each having their own unique essence and grace………

The passions that women possess,give tribute to a higher being,no matter what you call it……..

The beauty in the simplest of the Mother Earth’s bounty,gives perspective to the finer qualities of life……….

   The kinship that women feel with one another is more like a sisterhood.An understanding of our passions and desires,well beyond just lust……

To travel the path of self discovery gives way to the unbearable lightness of being…….

The eclectic melodies that arrive from a woman’s soul could wrap the world in the sweetest rhapsody…….

The depths of a woman’s soul reach unimaginable levels.Take a look inside and you find yourself coming into the light of the surface…..

From which a woman’s pearl, comes life, a new beginning……

Our flower is the giver of life divine……..

Our flower,brings new flowers for the world to embrace and love……

"Well behaved women,rarely make history"

                                                Marilyn Monroe

The angles and nuances that make up a woman will never be fully understood…….

Our sweet softness and femininity is what makes us different than our counterparts…….

These are the things that make us who we are.The fibers of life,the lovers of man,the keepers of compassion….These things are,

            The Beauty Of Women

I hope you enjoyed the show…..

-chenniechix

IRONY OF LOVE

The Irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time and having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’re suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. We all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here’s a piece of advice: Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love.